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Breezing Past Eight Months …

When you go to a doctor, they hand you a list of medical maladies to confirm or deny. For me depression is always on the menu. It’s the same for my mother. This past month I made the rounds of physicals and appointments connected with her newly-diagnosed diabetes and had to tick the DEPRESSION box a number of times. It was a gentle reminder that depression is kind of an heirloom in the sitting room of my life.

13720973609i026Decades ago when I started writing, a real knock-down-drag-out broke on a Persuasion discussion board about whether Anne Elliot was depressed and should be medicated. Those who thought she was made a good case for Prozac. Who wouldn’t want a few good mood-altering drugs with Sir Walter as your father and provider?

The other camp was less convincing. They were passionate that Anne wasn’t depressed but they had no arguments as to why they believed this. In fact, it all seemed to hinge on the fact that she still loved Frederick — as if a tall handsome Captain of the Line was the perfect antidepressant — and that … well … heroines don’t get depressed!

If this is the case, that heroines are immune, I am screwed.

All the memes that shout we have to be the heroines of our own life stories are not for me. And, if love is the antidote, I obviously don’t truly love my husband of 37 years, my kids or my grandkids. I AM the heartless twitch many suspect.

The worst part about my depression is it causes my emotions — except anger — to fade and recede. That makes writing tough. It’s nearly impossible to write a compelling love story when all the feelings are just a whisper away from my fingertips and keyboard, and all the actions of love are shadows in the gloaming.

MY latest thought is to write Anne depressed.

How fun would that be?

Still, it’s an idea and those have been thin on the ground for a while now.

What do you think? Anne and Frederick meet when they start going to the same therapist? Or meet in group therapy perhaps? Think of the trust building exercises! They are paired up for a depressives retreat by a famous mental health guru who is in actuality a serial killer.

Okay, we’ve gone from deep, thoughtful romance to a Criminal Minds episode. I’m not depressed, just unable to focus.

Anyway, have a great weekend. And let me know, Anne and Frederick moving slowly carefully towards the light of love or running for their lives with the sound of chainsaws in the background!

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The Slumber of Cold Vulgarity

summer034“I think Gaius and Titius may have honestly misunderstood the pressing educational need of the moment. They see the world around them swayed by emotional propaganda–they have learned from the tradition that youth is sentimental–and they conclude that the best thing they can do is to fortify the minds of young people against emotion. My own experience as a teacher tells and opposite tale. For every one pupil who needs to be guarded from a weak excess of sensibility there are three who need to be awakened from the slumber of cold vulgarity. The task of the modern educator is not to cut down jungles but to irrigate deserts. The right defence against false sentiments is to inoculate just sentiments. By starving the sensibility of our pupils we only make them easier prey to the propagandist when he comes. For famished nature will be avenged and a hard heart is no infallible protection against a soft head.

The Abolition of Man, by C. S. Lewis

The more things change, the more they stay the same.

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Shallow is as Shallow Does

One complaint about 50 Shades of Grey, the movie and books, is the characters are one-dimensional. That is to be expected when considered it’s based on Twilight fan faction. Much fan fiction is one dimensional because we fan fiction writers can simply presume on the character development of the originating author. The initial association with the original gets us readers and leaves us free to ride the coattails (or in Jane’s case, pelisse tails), of that author and allows us to spend all our time spinning what we feel are new and original plots.From past writer of Austen fan fiction, Sarah Hoyt:

“For instance, if you’re writing Pride and Prejudice fanfic, all you have to do is name the character Lizzie, even if you set it in modern day, and the reader immediately imbues it with every characteristic of the Jane Austen character, without your having to do any heavy lifting. In the same way if you name a character Wickham, everyone knows he’s a cad or worse and never mind making his faults believable or foreshadowing them.”

I know I did some of that in the first few chapters of my Frederick Wentworth, Captain novels. However, in previous stories I had written a lot of Frederick’s career backstory, and then went to develop and deepen him by way of exchanges with his sister Sophy, and the strained relationship with his brother, Edward. I also created the character, Admiral Patrick McGillvary, to further the backstory and to compare and contrast Wentworth’s honorable nature. Patrick is also a foil who reluctantly helps to facilitate Wentworth’s wooing of Anne Elliot. From what I understand, 50 doesn’t stray far from E. L. James’s original portrayal of the characters Anastasia Steele (Bella) and Christian Grey (Edward Cullen). Any development is shown in the changes coming by way of their sexual bond.

At its base, 50 Shades is a rich bad boy courting a naive girl from the poor side of town.

The trailer shows Ana in a flowered blouse and poly-blend sweater, hair in a ponytail, and a doe-eyed demeanor. This is all the characterization Hollywood feels necessary to show the middle and lower middle-classes. Cheap clothes and an earnest expression is all that’s needed evidently. One review pointed out some of the gifts Grey gives Ana in the beginning, before he gives her details of his alternatives lifestyle. He gives her a hot car and clothes. There was likely a trip to the salon as well. All these things are supposed to win an economically staited girl’s heart.

Hinds_LynchReferring back to the bad boy theme, I think a much better baddie to observe is Ciaran Hinds’s Sir Brian de Bois-Gilbert of Sir Walter Scott’s Ivanhoe.

Google HERE if you want a full synopsis of the plot of Ivanhoe, the basics are: Ivanhoe is the good guy, his mortal enemy is the traitorous Templar knight, Sir Brian de Bois-Gilbert. Between them is the lovely Jewess healer, Rebecca. Rebecca, who loves Ivanhoe but as a Jew can never have him, is kidnapped by the Templar and taken to a remote castle. Ivanhoe’s forces attack–for reasons other than freeing Rebecca–and Ivanhoe is gravely wounded. Rebecca is nursing him back to health while fending off Bois-Gilbert’s threats of rape and ruin.

After some time trapped together in the castle, Bois-Gilbert tires of the banter and drags Rebecca to the roof and lets her get a good look at how isolated she is. The message being, you may as well give in to me as no help is on the way. Even if help should happen by, it will be mowed down before it gets to the gates. They stop several feet from the edge. He lets her go and she rushes to a knee wall.

REBECCA: (she pauses, does not look at him) Are you not afraid I will throw myself off?
BOIS-GILBERT: (remains still and passive) No. You are too curious and will not stain the day with such violence. *
They banter some more and he points out advantages of marrying him.
REBECCA: You will buy me diamonds?
BOIS-GILBERT: I will buy you books.

DINGDINGDING!

No matter that he is a bad, bad man, he knows her. He knows that material goods don’t interest her. He knows that curiosity is a major function of her mind and personality, and that access to more knowledge is what will turn this little lady on.

He goes on to say that if she marries him he will introduce her to the greatest medical minds in Europe. He then says no one will hold being a Jew against the wife of Bois-Gilbert.

CLANK!

He puts his foot in it because he’s still in hunting mode. He has been studying her in order to capture her emotions, allowing him to take her in more than a physical sense. But, he is not yet to the point where hurting her could be as much to his advantage as not. Regardless, he has honestly touched her heart. She then goes on to raise the specter of Ivanhoe and Bois-Gilbert’s hatred of him, probably to remind herself of reality and to break the spell he has cast.

It is the rare person who does not want to be known deeply and truly. I believe that to have a man offer you gifts born of observation and understanding of who you are, what makes you tick, is far more likely to bind you to him than his working out a bad childhood with fine leather straps and blindfolds.

The movie differs from the book in that Bois-Gilbert does in fact fall in love with Rebecca. Eventually he offers her freedom, but the gesture comes too late to help her. He eventually dies for her. In the novel there was no romance, and Gilbert died a quick death, sacrificing nothing. The screenwriters did an excellent job in what I think is a little bit of their own Ivanhoe fan fiction.

I have read that in 50 Shades, Christian Grey gives Anastasia a car. To a billionaire, just about any car on the planet is a trinket when measured by cost. In last year’s season of The Big Bang Theory, the character, Penny, quits her waitressing job to pursue acting full time. Within a few episodes her faithful, but caution-light challenged VW blows an engine, and she’s hipped. In a great romantic gesture her boyfriend, experimental physicist, Leonard, buys her a used but dependable car. To me, this similar gesture is truly romantic because while he is entirely too practical to believe in Penny’s dream of being famous, he does support her as much as he is able. He can’t go full-in, but chooses to put it all aside so she can continue to pursue the dream. He knows her, understands her, and is acknowledging what makes her tick.

Christian Grey could take some lessons from a baddie of the Middle Ages and a contemporary nerd boy. If you think you’re the biggest prize a girl can have, you’re probably wrong. Tossing a girl the keys to a car is fun for a moment or two, but tossing her the keys to her dreams might get you forever.

 

*I think that Hinds was the perfect Wentworth, because even his good guys have an edge. But anyone who has followed his career knows he is a most excellent bad guy. Though, he does have an affectation or two. Instead of twirling his mustache, he juts his chin when his villains are monologuing, and he does so on this line. The other is dragging drag out a syllable for an inordinately long time. In Ivanhoe, he says “vi-i-i-lence,” rather than the shorter, vi-uhlence. In this case it has a wonderful affect and gives Susan Lynch, the actress playing Rebecca, a few more beats to realize Bois-Gilbert thoroughly is in her head.

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I Had to Laugh … The Super Bowl

I_Had_to_Laugh_AvatarI haven’t been the same building as the Super Bowl since the great wardrobe malfunction of … (this is taking time as I’m having to Google it … ), 2004. And then I never went in the room where the game was showing, but stayed in the kitchen talking with friends.

When you grow up with a rabid football father, you join the team or you retreat. I chose retreat.

I understand the premise. I even enjoyed going to games in high school. But now that I am an adult and get some choice in how I spend my time, I choose to exert my competitive side watching cooking shows. At the moment, I am watching the cutthroat Greatest British Baking Show.

British-Baking-Show-Bakers-Feat-602x338I think it will come down to upholsterer from Brighton, Kate and Richard, a builder from North London. However, I can’t count out 17-year-old Martha who is a quick learner. And very cute. Who will take home the crown. I haven’t a clue, but I do like watching other people cook. I just hope there are no pass interceptions in the last minutes of the contest.